Confidence: The Rediscovery

Self-confidence is something I feel, we all had to deal with at some point in our lives. Although we may be reminded by our loved ones how beautiful or handsome you are -sometimes- it’s just hard to agree. Finding something you can do to boost up that confidence can literally be life-changing. It makes you feel good, I don’t know about you but it’s usually around the same time I get my best selfies, and you’re truly just showing the best version of yourself at an all-time high. As to many, makeup is that something I do to boost my confidence.

My story with makeup starts at a very young age, I have very vivid memories of myself as a kid stealing my mom’s sparkly red lipstick. It was one of her favorites, I remember she would only use it for special occasions like Christmas or new years and that just made it so much more special to me. I loved everything about that lipstick, from the smell or taste the feeling of the glitter on my lips, even how the tube in itself felt in my hands. I would often get in trouble for using it while playing and I’m sure I made huge messes with it but I didn’t care because the feeling that lipstick gave me was unbeatable. When I was a little girl, I was the stereotypical girly-girl. Painted my short nails messily with glitter and packed on my pink barbie lipstick without of course forgetting about the all pink room, princess bed sheets included. As I grew older, the pink phase began to die down and I finally got to experience the real deal.

I can’t even begin to explain the number of times I have looked orange, pink, white, and yellow because I used the wrong foundation shade. Embarrassing indeed, but I wouldn’t take those experiences back at all. That’s one of the reasons why I fell in love with it, to begin with. I like how much there is to learn, understanding that some primers may not work well with some foundations because of the ingredients and that’s why it looks bad. It helps me get to know myself better, what colors look better with my skin tone, or how I can blend different shades together to make a complete and awesome look. Although most importantly, I love how fun it is. Makeup time also means singing and dancing time to my favorite songs, which just puts me in a good mood overall always. 

2017 and 2018 were the years that makeup had really become not only a hobby but a possible career. I considered studying cosmetology after high school, I even worked in a play as the makeup artist for a show performed during my city’s book fair! As life became more real, I, unfortunately, let that passion go and forgot how good it made me feel. I went from wearing a full face of makeup almost every day to none at all or maybe if you’re lucky a little mascara and brows action. Recently, I have been presented with certain occasions that I would usually put on my makeup for like a formal meeting or photographs being taken of me. I set the time out to do it and I basically relived fun memories I thought were gone. I realized how good I felt wearing makeup, it literally feels like the greatest moment ever, something no one can ever break or take from me.