Journaling .01: The darkest moment comes to be a blessing

I’d believed every time in our lives would be teachable. This time I experienced being in the worst moment but instead of keeping myself down by my emotions, I decided to reassure my faith.

I was at home thinking of what I’m supposed to write this week for the blog when I ended up thinking about my daughter’s school lessons —which curriculum I recently created— among other things surely I’m not the only one concerning these days. You could tell I was overthinking about so many bad scenarios I feared at once like: getting sick or any of my loved ones, my girls getting their education needs fill by mommy homeschooling, work, housing, financials, etc.

A few minutes late that day I decided to stop judging God’s jobs in my life and family. I could tell I was hopeless and desperate and so preoccupied I would never see the danger my confidence and faith we’re exposed to. That makes me feel and realize where I was.

I felt I wasn’t thinking the right way. I’m supposed to let the peace rejoice my life the way as a human being I would fear but I would also feel safe because I had Him by my side.

“I have swept away your offenses like a cloud, your sins like the morning mist. Return to me, for I have redeemed you.”

Isaiah, 44:22

God shows me how even the darkest moment of my existence could become something in favor because of his mercy. I was doubting of his work, and I was mad because things were not working my way. But he still shows me that his direction has a purpose.

Like his scriptures says:

“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

Galatians, 2:20

No matter how many hard times we had and how many mistakes we did, the past isn’t accountable and his future will always be promised. I got a time in my life I’m not proud of, moments when I lied, and don’t behave as my best self would do. But I have never seen him leaving me, on the contrary, I see how circumstances in my life could have been worse if I would not have a guardian angel keeping me safe every day and night like he is.

Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?

Hebrews, 1:14

At the of the day, a hard one you might learn the same lesson I did, hold onto faith no matter which religion you follow or practice, put your worries, let them go. Instead of drowning yourself in a cup of water, you will find peace of mind that you deserve and eventually everything will get better. There are a few verses in the scriptures that will help you reaffirm your thoughts:

“You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You because he trusts in You.”

Isaiah 26:3

“Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

John 14:27

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”

Philippians 4:6-7